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3:47 PM 2/8/2016

Mon Feb 8, 2016, 3:50 PM

....two days

but that was yesterday

i still see your wonder smile

behind the clouds

passing overhead

you give me hope

on a raining day


can some one help

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 3, 2016, 6:35 PM
...Sunny Days Of Summer...Umm

dear freiends

am very puzzled

what is wrong with my current art?

i like what i did

but my faves has gone fishing

come i only good for

a handful of stars?

if it was not for my good friends

then perhaps

oh well i wont g\oing there

its just hurts

but then again

if only one person

what say i like it

then its worth it...right

or perhaps you

have gone to the dark place

about your art

what did you do?

maybe my art is to wild for most taste

i just don't know

can you help?



Zie u in droomtijd...:sleep:

Where is caddman?

Journal Entry: Sat Jan 30, 2016, 12:03 PM

but a dream away

many thoughts inside

am i done?

my moment riding

into the sunset

i say nine

but my last

has been a drowner

for me

have i become a 30-50 man?

so for now

am standing still

so tried

my fate

is pondering

in your eyes

as they say in the moviews

i will be back...


[ Shower of Blood skin by RockstarVanity with Exodus 7:19 ]

dreamworld here i come

Sat Jan 16, 2016, 5:00 PM

10:34 AM 9/20/2015

...the door of the unknown
excuse me while i slip into
the other side

as the eye lids grow heavy
and the mind grows numb
dreamworld here i come

Guides, Grid slices

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 14, 2016, 4:35 PM

Dead Awakening your dream bro

you saw don juan "Man of Knowledge"

you experience the pressure of mysterious winds and the shiver of leaves at twilight, the hunter's peculiar alertness to sound and smell, the rock-bottom scrubbiness of the unknown

I also had this dream by I was you and you were me...:D

Skin by MoonZaphire


Wed Dec 23, 2015, 2:20 PM








There’s no more war or hate

If it was so easy

We could give it a try


As the ground below us

Above us only sky




For a moment

We could all live as one

No more countries or states


What a wonderful thought

That would be

Living for today




With nothing to do

But to be friends with others




The sea of people

Across the land

Living life in peace


Many know me

As the dream weaver

Of pictures and thoughts


But I'm not the only one




A place as wonderful

Here like deviant art

Only me and you


Creating lone lasting

Memories to forever

Share to the world


I wonder if you can

I hope someday you'll join me

And the world will live as one




It’s all up to us


You and me





going on vk

Wed Nov 11, 2015, 2:03 PM by caddman:iconcaddman:
my dear friends and guest

i will be away for a spell or 2

its time for my fall vacation getaway

going to the coast

to hear the sweet sound
of the waves kissing the shore

not to worry...i will be back

keep you art lov a going

with all you amazing skills and pictures

until then be good u all

see ya in dreamtime...:sleep:


so thoughts in closing
i know by the sounds
that grow dim in the moring sun
that i have been here before

only eched memories scar my eyes
i have been come numb to the pain
time is growing short in every tick

soon my rocket will be ready
but when it comes be happy
i may leave but will always be around

...:heart: to u


Can you meet this challenge?

Fri Nov 6, 2015, 5:49 PM by caddman:iconcaddman:
I've seen this with the letters out of order, but this is the first time I've seen it with numbers. Good example of a Brain Study: If you can read this OUT LOUD you have a strong mind. And better than that: Alzheimer's is a long long, way down the road before it ever gets anywhere near you.

7H15                    M3554G3  
53RV35                    7O PR0V3
H0W                    0UR M1ND5 C4N
D0                    4M4Z1NG 7H1NG5!
1MPR3551V3                    7H1NG5!
1N                    7H3 B3G1NN1NG
17                    WA5 H4RD BU7
N0W,                    0N 7H15 LIN3
Y0UR                    M1ND 1S
R34D1NG 17
W17H                    0U7 3V3N
7H1NK1NG                    4B0U7 17,
C3R741N                    P30PL3 C4N
R3AD                    7H15.
PL3453                    F0RW4RD 1F
U                     C4N R34D 7H15.

To my 'selected' strange-minded friends: If you can read the following paragraph, forward it on to your friends with 'yes' in the subject line. Only great minds can read this. This is weird, but interesting!  

If you can raed this, you have a sgtrane mnid, too.

Can you raed this? Olny 55 people out of 100 can.

I cdnuolt blveiee that I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd what I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in what oerdr the ltteres in a word are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is that the frsit and last ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can still raed it whotuit a pboerlm. This is bcuseaethe huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the word as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? Yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! If you can raed this forwrad it.  


Devious Journal Entry

Sat Sep 5, 2015, 4:57 PM by caddman:iconcaddman:
...oh yes howl and embrace the madness

...let the weak fall to the ground

...may tomorrow know no gladness

...raise our glass and cheer the moon becomes full

...glazed eyes and lips that howl

...we stop and wonder is there anymore


Gently the stings are plucked
listen to wind blow across
the ocean blue

maybe you know the tune
as the words come into view

A Ray Of Hope

Mon Aug 17, 2015, 3:46 PM


Your thoughts

Are like golden coins

Shinning in water


Your warmth

Has touched my soul


A ray of hope

In a darken room

Full of hurt


Shows I am worth

More than a

Handful of dirt


You have lifted me

When I was down

When I was


Being pulled

Under with despair


You woke me up

And made me aware

To face a new day


Paint all the mirrors

From grey to white

Am ok





If you Read This

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 16, 2015, 2:42 PM
...Sunny Days Of Summer...Umm

Ok my friends

If you’re reading this

Then you’re the ones

That left the check-box



So I must ponder

What’s wrong?

At this time

With my art


I have been here

A long time

Am old as dirt

Younger than sand


During that span

Had ups and downs

As all must face

At one time or another


Trial and error

Learn by doing

Baptism by fire

Was my learning curve


Dark to light

Photos to thoughts

Many ways to weave

The many dreamscapes


Dream to dream

My vision has

Become more clear

As a rise upon the ladder


Until now

Current Greenwich Time

Am standing still

As time slips backwards


Have I gone blind?

Is my skills gone missing

Is the dreams become

Nothing but a mere blur


My head spins

My heart hurts

Tears rolling

To my feet


The climb to be

The best as one can get

Is not a lite task

Some have to work harder


Just last year

My dream flew upward

60 -- 90 golden stars

Shinning bright


Then me pop

Went to sleep

With the angels

Then the downward spiral


Writing my problems

Down in detail

On my favorite

Yellow ruled paper


I know the blue orb

Spins around and around

Time waits for no man wishes


Am not done yet

Its like am alone

Alone on an island

Just dreaming to survive


Only you

The real yours

You know who

You are


Thank you

Without you

I would be nothing


You have helped me

Be a better caddman

Zie u in droomtijd...:sleep:

Am sinking

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 10, 2015, 12:43 PM


Disappointment unknown

How could it come to this?


Am sinking

In the mass sea

Of social conflict


A fly speak

Upon a wall

As the world

Spins on


Am not down

With the tally

Of interest


For no one sees

That am here

And that hurts


Standing still

All has become clear

Should I remain?


Or slip into

The darkness

And leave the light on?

Skin by MoonZaphire

DeviantArtist Questionnaire

Fri Aug 7, 2015, 12:52 PM

1. How long have you been on DeviantArt?
...I am an old timer and have for 13 years

2. What does your username mean?
...Caddman that’s me...:D
This name was giving to me some years ago
while working at a design firm as a cad tech. and a co-worker was

having an AutoCAD problem...went to her machine & fixed the

problem and she’re the are the Caddman

3. Describe yourself in three words.

4. Are you left or right handed?
...I can use both

5. What was your first deviation?
... A painting done old school

6. What is your favorite type of art to create?
...dark and fantasy

7. If you could instantly master a different art style,
   What would it be?
...paint in Photoshop with no photomap added

8. What were you First favorite? was so long ago...oh yes this lovely pic

Witchy Woman by IllustratedEye

9. What type of art do you tend to favorite most?
...Photos & Photomaps

10. Who is your all-time Deviant artist?
...i have a few here is my list ...:iconfantasio:..:iconaeternum-art:...:iconelenadudina:...:iconmartanael:...:iconprincess-of-shadows:...:iconalexandravbach:

11. If you could met anyone on DeviantArt in person,
     Who would it be?
...My good friend dear Lois ...:iconwingsofdragons:
+ :iconcatmoonad:...:icongreenfaery:...:iconmelgama:...:iconasclaire:

12. How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?
...that answer has to go to my friend Conz. ...:iconconzpiracy:
   He showed many so many tips and ideas in Photoshop.
   Thank you my friend...:)

13. What are your preferred tools to create art?
...Photoshop, AutoCAD, IrfanView, pen, pencil and my camera

14. What is the most inspirational place for you to create art? my computer has all my books, and other fun things

15. What is your favorite DeviantArt memory?
...I have two such memories
--> When I got a DD
--> When I became a Sr.


Wake up

Sat Jul 25, 2015, 2:39 PM

Wake up
My Precious Angel
No need for a Nervous Breakdown

Just Say The Same words
with a Stiff Upper Lip
For am getting closer
Within A Mile Of Home

Here I am All Of Me
who are you I ask
When Death Has No Name

Stop the pain
From the left
One Last Breath

  • Listening to: heavy metal from my ipod
  • Reading: my words
  • Watching: myself
  • Playing: around
  • Eating: nothing but sound
  • Drinking: your tears

till the end of time

Sat Jun 27, 2015, 1:34 PM
the touch of your sweet embrace
I will keep close to me forever
never letting this vision go
till the stars refuse to shine
am yours forever more
till the end of time

  • Listening to: heavy metal from my ipod
  • Reading: my words
  • Watching: myself
  • Playing: around
  • Eating: nothing but sound
  • Drinking: your tears

My A B C's

Sat Jun 6, 2015, 12:49 PM

My A B C

what does it mean?

... A = ABET
... B= BLOOD
... C = CROW
... F = FATE
... E = EVOLVE
... G = GUIDE
... H = HAVEN
... L = LOVE
... M = MAGIC
... N = NINE
... O = OMEN
... P = PUZZLE
... Q = QUIET
... R = ROCK
... S = SEVEN
... T = TRUTH
... W = WISDOM
... X = X-FILE
... Z = ZENITH


  • Listening to: heavy metal from my ipod
  • Reading: my words
  • Watching: myself
  • Playing: around
  • Eating: nothing but sound
  • Drinking: your tears

A, C,E ,F ,G ,H ,T ,V ,W, X.

Tue May 26, 2015, 4:58 PM
...Sunny Days Of Summer...Umm

were old as dirt
that don't clean showers
coffee a must in the mornings
say you look lovely in red & 2
show me the silver
were both (6) 12 inch rulers tall
tell the roster at 4:20 to shut he's trap
beets not a taste like dirt
we walk to beat of own drummer of sounds
x-rays...anymore and we would have x-ray vision

  • Listening to: heavy metal from my ipod
  • Reading: my words
  • Watching: myself
  • Playing: around
  • Eating: nothing but sound
  • Drinking: your tears

I wave my good byes

Sat May 2, 2015, 1:59 PM by caddman:iconcaddman:





Into the shadows

I wave my good byes

Forever to darkness

Soon will slip away


Rays of light

Dance through the night

Proves your run

Was right


Now I stand

Before the portal

Soon to fade


Until only a memory

To hold

For another day


Your time is short

For the writing

Is on the wall to read


You had a nice run

Had your moment

But know


It’s your time

To come to an end



It’s time to say

The words good bye

My old friend



  • Listening to: heavy metal from my ipod
  • Reading: my words
  • Watching: myself
  • Playing: around
  • Eating: nothing but sound
  • Drinking: your tears

My brother of words Has gone away

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 26, 2015, 4:30 PM


I read the e-note

Come by yesterday 03-25-2015

I am not able

To pen the words

To know what to say

My brother of words

Has gone away

Oh my friend

RonRay     :iconbark:

Is sleeping

With angles today


Now the darkness

Has become visible

As my face

Turns to stone


For I know

Am not alone


Some how

My world

Just got smaller

  • Listening to: heavy metal from my ipod
  • Reading: my words
  • Watching: myself
  • Playing: around
  • Eating: nothing but sound
  • Drinking: your tears

stand alone in my only song

Fri Feb 13, 2015, 4:50 PM

often i see the raven
from afar and wonder
does he know my name

will the wind blow
only to chill my bones
wires waving from the sound

then memories come foward
find myself once again
with the light my friend i gaze upon the open portal
and wonder what the day will bring

stand alone in my only song
come with me to the unknown

Graphics & CSS by Adorael
  • Listening to: heavy metal from my ipod
  • Reading: my words
  • Watching: myself
  • Playing: around
  • Eating: nothing but sound
  • Drinking: your tears